Thinking of...

It has been a long time...

I thought I had forgotten...

I was wrong...

never ever changed...

never ever...

always the same...

I'm such a loser.

Ignorance...

I have neglected my blog for a long time...
Is time to update...if not my blog will become "cacat"

So far, there is nothing good happened recently...

Bad things happen frequently thou

It was torturing...maybe "ignorance" is the best solution

don't think...don't mention...don't care

Not feeling like wanted to retrieve the bad experience...

Before I end....I want to wish my mom who is the birthday lady today

"Happy Birthday to U, MOM"

p/s: I have a wish which is me and brother able to make both of you feel proud in the future.

Part of My Future Plan

College life should be interesting right?

I don't think so...sigh

Feeling like wanted to give up edi....really bored to face the bad outcomes anymore

Maybe I have chosen the wrong selection before I approached myself to this course

Sometimes I really don't know what I am struggling for...it seems like pointless

Seriously no impact for me to accelerate further...

I think I need to give myself a final chance...

If the consequence in the end of semester is unacceptable, I will like to say "Goodbye, HELP!!!"

Is time for me to make this choice...

Although I have sense of regret on picking this course....

But I gained something which are priceless for me...

There are my friends and people I recognized...

And also the incidents that I had experienced no matter there were happy or sad...

I will never ever forget every single "thinky"....

Those memories brought me lots of joy...(grinned foolishly while typing this)

Be confess, I hope that everything can go smoothly in this semester (quite hard lo~)...

"Fact is cruel"


Lastly, all the best to my buddies and friends around me :)

Sincere Bless...

People afraid of failure...

To evade failure, they try to figure out a lot of prediction to avoid them

I think most of the people would do the same thing...

However,

Some of them hesitate too much...

Finally, they choose to give up or pretend nothing has happened

So do I...

Those speculations affected my self-motivation until I have no confidence to move on anymore...

Therefore, I rather chose to flight than fight for it...

What I received were...

Sadness, Regret and Disappointment...

Although I got nothing but I learnt something through this case until today...

If you didn't try before, better don't assume the outcomes

I don't think people who like to hide everything in mind is a great person...(only coward will do that)

Why don't just go for it and try to achieve...

It is good that you know the truth rather than stay in suspicion condition...

After I have expressed everything to someone....

I feel so comfortable because I have let go the burden which kept in my heart for so long...

Anyway, really hope that you will meet your Mr.Right soon (sincere bless for you)

Chelsea ruined my "Burger"

After this incident that I have experienced in Bangsar McD.

I come out with one hypothesis which is...

"The truth is cruel, unacceptable, ridiculous and SUCKS"....fuit~fuit~

Tonight...

I had fully hope and confident on my decision...

I thought today was my lucky day and I would have a splendid Sunday night...

Life is tremendously unpredictable...full of excitement and fluctuation

My speculation was...

I was so desperate for the gratification...

But..

But...

How could it be !!!

The truth is...

It is totally unbelievable....is it a hallucination???

Chelsea ahz...you ruined my burger...I shouldn't put too much expectation on you

Mike...don't worry

I will make my promise to you...just tell me when you need it

better don't get choked ooo....HAHAHA (sounds so bad)

Dead Space...one of my collection

I just bought a game which I used to desperate for so long....

This game is so cool...

the graphics...sound effects....motions....animation...all are terrific

this most attracting part in this game is....

this!!!



(only for 18 or above)
Warning: The content of this game would cause discomfort

Those words can prove that how terrifying the game is...

Better don't play while you are alone unless you have the "guts"

For those who wanna challenge his limitation...I will recommend him to try this game...

I think it is a good method to measure the arousal level...

the purpose of gaming is to reduce stress

In contrary, this game makes me feel stress...really KNS



this game is driving me crazy thou...but I enjoy it

if you don't believe....watch this

I will spend my halloween with this game...cheers DEAD SPACE

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=67cTIWDuKXM

Unfortunately...

I have watched a movie which just released today with my boss Hau Ran (this time i spell ur name correctly).

The movie name as "Max Payne". It is also one of the game I used to play before (damn good).

In my opinion, this movie is pretty good for me.




Unfortunately...Sadly...Desparately

My boss said the movie sucks and wasted his money to watch it...

Not that bad right.....dude

Besides,

I have figured our 202 lecturer has a new skill during teaching until I felt it today.

She can able to hpynotize students while teaching....what a freak!!!!

Actually, I was trying my real best to concenstrate during the class.

But....Unfortunately...

I couldn't able to evade myself from the condition of falling asleep until the stage of I couldn't realize I was falling asleep (unbelievable!!!).

Pretty awesome huh...

Haiz...this subject is killing me (not only this subject =.=)

Luckily, I have created conflict during the class to ignite the atmosphere to reduce my sleepiness. (no choice la, the class was too boring edi).

Sincerely,

I need to apologize to the "victims" who involved to this conflict...don't piss off ya.

P/S: Hau Ran, bring out ur balls and show me the guts . (sure u know what I mean)

"The Balls"

Kin.Y returns....

It was a long time I didn't touch my blog.
I used to think that I had nothing to express in my life.
But I had made a wrong mistake....absolutely wrong.
Maybe it was the cause of my stubborn or repression...maybe.
Nowadays, I will start to blog whatever I want to express without any doubt and back to track.
Skepticism caused me missed a lot of stuffs.
Fortunately, I have waken up.
First of all, I need to thank my dudes around me especially for those in college.
I betrayed your trust to me before.
I didn't cherish it before.
Therefore, I want to apologize by taking this chance.
Bro mah...I think you guys won't blame on me geh.
Sometimes I feel so tired to be humour in front of other ppl especially in moody condition.
Why I still want to insist on doing that kind of reaction?
Maybe this is my trademark or get used to it edi.
Wearing a mask makes me feel breathless.
Hao Ran, I think you are right.
"Don't always apply humour to disguise real self."
Need to put more effort to overcome this problem.
Alright, try and see lo...(still considering)
In conclusion,
I think this will be very weird if somedays I became a serious person and didn't crap at all.
Who knows.....

Friendship never end....DUDES

Eventually, everything in this semester can be considered as "DONE". I can sleep and do my stuffs anytime and anyway without thinking about any assignments or exams in this few weeks. It's really hard to express my feelings right now. Therefore, I have chosen one example to explain my feelings such as the people who have constipation for a long time and finally he or she can release out smoothly without "mercy". I think most of the viewers don't understand what I'm typing about. It just for my gang of buddies (Pls don't keep describe me as a course mate anymore T.T). The worst thing is they always "bully" me without any mercy as well. I'm so innocent right now but then i have no choice, maybe I can only say this is my fate. Only solution is accept the truth just like what I've learned in the definition of death and dying (denial, angry, bargaining, depression and acceptance). I can't even get through the stages and straightly jump to the last stage of acceptance....really "KNS". Buddies.....pls don't treat me like that.....I can't imagine this thing will happen to me....why??? The definition of FFG is very wide and has to base on what kind of condition. But mine is totally special....can be listed in category of "beautiful lie". Buddies, you guys are the light in the darkness, you guys are the toilet bowl when I couldn't find a place to shit.....You guys will be always in my heart (Sounds so gay right =.=)...Pls don't misunderstand.....I'm not curly at all. Before I end this post, I will like to mention that it is my holiday right now but have to work so on....haiz....so yam gong......

No regret.....

Something drag in my mind for a long time. I think I shouldn't repress it anymore. I shall be more initiative this time because I have a great acceleration at the same time. I don't want to make myself feel regret anymore....no more!!! I have determined to go for it and will not give up easily. Although the percentage of success is still considered as a mystery, but i'm not border it at all. The only thing is I will just proceed my plan without any doubts no matter how are the consequences being intense of succeed or failed. As long as i have tried my best to achieve my goal and it's enough for me. Certainly, the final is getting closer and closer.....I can't catch my breath gradually but I can predict that there is "blue sky" waiting for me....I can feel that. By the way, my tortoise is back to me and I'm so happy that I found it....This case has taught me a lesson....Human always neglect the person around them, but once he or she had left...the only thing left is the pain of lost. Therefore, we have to cherish the person who around us to avert it happens in our life. Although it is a common theory for everybody but it contains the meaning of "cherish" in our daily life. Eventually, I have realized that...that's what we call "cognitive learning".

Pls come back......

Today is the last day and also the last assignment for me to submit. I should be glad for that because i have finally finished every assignment in this semester. But then, there are something really really bad happened to me when i arrived to home. The 1st thing i will do is to greet my two beloveds to let them know i'm home. The only thing that really makes me surprised and shocked was one of my beloved has gone. Oh my god...how could it be.....i have searched around my house but still could not find him even his marks. I have searched his room and searched everywhere. I'm so moody right now because i have lost him........I feel upset is not because of his gone but he did not tell me at all the reason why he leaves me without any words left behind for me.....I'm so frustrated.....i cannot force my tear to fall down because of him.....Pls come back to me.....Pls come back......I will always wait for you........My Tortoise....pls come home. (T.T)

Final is coming !!!

Haiz...final brings a lot of stresses to me because i have to start my study again. Once i look at the textbooks or slides, my eyes will activate the "function" automatically which is get sleepy easily. Although this is not a good sense for study, but it is good for people who having insomnia frequently. Therefore, i will not afraid i cannot get to sleep. Fortunately, i have thought a solution to avoid this case happens which is drinking while studying. It increases my task performance. Sounds cool right??!!! Drinking can lower down my arousal level and i will more focus on my study. People always say "DON'T DRINK AND DRIVE" but no people says "DON'T DRINK AND STUDY". I recommend that for those people who are weak in drinking better don't try this at home. I think it will spoilt everything. PLS DON'T TRY THIS AT HOME.....Hurray!!! Irish Beer...such a nice beer.

My "Virginity".

First of all, i want to clarify the meaning of "virginity" in this title to avert misunderstanding. Why i want to use this word to apply my current condition? That's a good question. This is my 1st time to post a blog on the web. There are different kind of feelings appear which are excited, contradictory, shy(I will get shy easily), and much much more. I really want to appreciate that my buddies' encouragement because without them....I won't have this kind of thinking to start a blog. Once I typed my words in the blog, my perspiration system had a high performance at the same time. I couldn't stop sweating because it was too tension for me. I know most of the people will think that I'm a "freak" after reading this blog. Nevertheless, blogger has the authorities to type anything they like without any suspicious. Eventually, now I realize that the fun of posting blog and i have found another way to express my happiness and sadness. :)